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| Location #2 Bayankhongor |
It will not be possible to give you a fair account
of what God did over the two month that we spend in Mongolia. But there is one
personal experience that I want to share with you, because this specific encounter
with God really became the high light.
We were half way through outreach and just settled
into our second location in the Mongolian countryside. A beautiful place all
around. The landscape was breathtaking beyond comparison and yet since a few
days I felt frustrated. I didn’t really understand why and ignored it at first,
choosing to be joyful nevertheless. But that one day my frustration and
confusion hit the roof. I shared that I’m feeling terrible with the team that
prayed for me immediately, but I knew I still had to deal with all these strong
and very raw emotions. So I left the team for a bit and ran out of the town into
the open field and I let it all out. As I was shouting at God and at the same
time crying out to him the reason for my frustration became clearer: I was very
disappointed by God! He promised life in fullness to those who follow him but I
did not feel like I was having that. Don’t get me wrong, I was content with my
life and situation but fullness of life? No, I was not having that. I’m very
adventurous by nature, love physical challenges and find a huge
excitement in them. But I didn’t find that in my walk with God, it wasn’t that adventurously
exciting. Christianity, how I see it modelled a lot, is this ongoing journey of
how to become a good person that makes good choices. There is nothing wrong
with that, but this is not what I think of when someone talks about a fulfilled
life. This is why I was frustrated and this all came out in that field. No good
sounding prayer but a raw and real cry to him. “God if these desires for
adventure are not meant to be fulfilled then take them away. But if they are
good, show me a way I can live according to them.” This is what I asked and
until now I still have the desire for adventure :-)
I don’t know if you can relate in any way to this,
but for me this was probably the best “quite time” I’ve ever had. I would
encourage all of you to be real. God already knows if you are mad at him, there
is no need of pretending that everything is fine and on top of your anger also
be hypocritical. This one encounter with God totally changed the way I
interacted with him. My relationship with Him became much more real and much
more personal. My hunger to simply know him and to seek his presence grew once
more.
I don’t have all the answers that I was looking
for, but my trust in him was renewed. He truly gave me the “peace that
surpasses all understanding” and later on he showed me through his word that
having this wild, adventurous spirit is given by him and much needed: In
Genesis 1 God blesses Men saying “...subdue the earth…”. Subdue here means to
conquer or to bring under control by force. This to me sounds more adventurous
and wild than trying to become a good person.
This is a personal revelation true to me. I don’t
try to force a doctrine on anyone, but I share what I experience. Whether you
agree or not I want to encourage you to seek God in all realness and honesty.
For a detailed report of all we experienced in Mongolia click here.
Currently I am traveling with my family in Australia. It has been amazing so far.
Soon this time will be over. They will fly home and I will start preparing for the next school.
God bless you!
Corsin.
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